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As titled, the once fictional, recently aspired and in progress album named ‘Hope for An Unrelenting WinterSummer’ practically sums up this blog post. WinterSummer, my musician alias, was a project I started in high school under many different names… Paradox Kitty… Pictochat… etc. The name WinterSummer was not just some aesthetically chosen name however. I find my life in a cycle of winter and summer. I exclude fall and spring here due to the fact that both of these seasons in my hometown were a week long and the rest of the year was truly either winter or summer. Summer extending into the early weeks of October and by the end of the month it was winter.

At the end of each season I found myself dying for the next one. Waiting for change, hoping for something unrelenting. I hope each season does not hold back. “Give me your worst,” I say. Let the summers be as brutal as the midwest winters. Let me experience it all, become unrelenting. I sit here in my office at work waiting for the season to change. My summer job was unrelenting, it did not hold back the brutal reality. I yearn so deeply to return to college, to find myself again. I’m impatient, I know. Let the day turn to night let it turn all over again. Unrelenting does not have to be a bad thing. I want to experience it all, I WANT it to be unrelenting.

Practices and Preludes (Let it be brutal)

When the seasons turn over I find myself setting habits for the next chapter. A yearning feeling for something good. I figured it would be possibly helpful to share some of these practices I hope to set into the school year. If you find yourself going into the school year or even just a new season I hope these ideas may set some hope in you for the seasons changing over. To preface these ideas, I must let you know I have a difficult relationship with habits and routines so some of these may seem simple but as a neurodivergent, mentally ill person they mean a lot to me… Indulge yourself, I suppose.